I feel soo weird when i think that people want to tell something to me but they want to keep it but obviously everything shows from their face. And i feel hurt badly. Keep protest between my mind and heart. Keep telling to myself that I should resign. But what for? U still need to learn more.
The environment is not healthy at all. Ppl keep judging me. Keep scolding me even I'm not wrong. Yes, i know.. These are for my reminder for not doing a same thing again. But still, do you have to raise your voice to teach people? When you're doing a wrong thing... Do you like ppl bark at you like you're not human... AT ALL. It sucks!
Allah. Just lend me a bit of strength so that i can go through day by day peacefully. I know i am a slow learner but that's not your ticket for bullying me like I'm a kid. I always blame myself; WHY I'M A SLOW LEARNER?!! WHYY WHYY. I KEPT BURDEN MY OFFICE MATE FOR TEACHING ME HERE N THERE A THOUSAND TIME. STILL, CANNOT UNDERSTAND IT. WHY?!
Pff! I love to work here but the environment itself really made my day horrible and keep blaming myself for doing wrong and cannot bark out to ppl who yelling at you just now. Bcs of the seniority and you're just cannot!
Done and bye.
aku asyik mencari satu yang kekal yg pasti depan mata tak berpanjangan... aku break dengan perasaan aku sendiri takut melarat berlebihan. aku yang ingin beredar di perasaan ku yang lama hanya aku menunggu dan aku malas utk menakuk lebih lama nanti aku sakit. sakit yang pedih kerna aku seorang sahaja yg mengerti. kalau dibicarakan sekalipun, tidak ada yang memahami mengapa mungkin aku sendiri yang tidak ingin melarat. bahaya. aku berhenti utk melayang jauh ke paksi sana untuk aku sentiasa segar di dunia yang nyata. sesuatu yang sempurna itu tidak ada, tp di mata engkau terlalu bahagia utk aku rasa benda yang sama. mungkin kita mempunyai dua dunia berbeda atau mungkin aku berperasaan sendiri sendiri tapi mata tidak boleh menipu dan hati kita setuju utk bersama; walhal hanya di alam maya yang bukan nyata sungguh. Bahagia? pasti tapi sebentar.. sedetik dua, aku sedar.. oh.. bukan nyata bukan realiti. maka dengan itu aku pergi. biar aku bahagia utk aku. terjangkau memori lama yang hanya ora...
Comments
Post a Comment