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Adapting adult sesh..

hi! umurku semakin naik.. ku isi dengan habiskan tengok Itaewon class. My heart shattered.. aku tak tau kenapa aku tak suka birthday aku kekeke. i dont want to see expectations from people. as i grow older, aku semakin yakin yang kalau boleh tak payah wish tak payah buat apa apa sebab memang dari dulu tak dibesarkan utk itu.. aku tak tau nak ber reaksi apa utk ucapan ucapan itu (kalau ada) mungkin dulu aku pernah terlalu mengharapkan sesuatu yang pada akhirnya disaster.. aku taknak rasa benda tu lagi... sakit. cukup cukup lah aku ni sakit dari dulu. kahkah. I wont, anymore. nah.. i wont regret anymore for what happened.. it was my past feelings, tp mungkin pendam sampaike tua, aku maafkan tapi aku mungkin masih tak boleh lupa... ada banyak benda nak kena gapai tapi aku tau people will shadow me afterwards... i am lame, i know... i am thankful for everything, cuma aku taknak ada yang tahu... it makes me shattered everytime i got wishes.. berderai tak sudah untuk aku lupa semua itu..

Bestfriend engagement soon.

Adult talk: marriage.  Make me thinking, what good memories that we're ever created ? Answer : fight.  If i could show time-lapse from high school until current fight,  ppl around us were not bothered anymore. Deep in my heart ,  i could say that I'm not ready for your marriage bcs everytime you're always with me. But on other side, I'm happy bcs you're happy, now. and I hope your happiness is forever.  We keep counting months and now we're counting days.  I'm hoping every each things happen smoothly, in shaa allah.  This is how it feels when best friend will get married soon...